it is the end of an era; i feel like duo does at the end of endless waltz...

[omaewokorosu]

...when he says "this time it's goodbye for real".

I don't know why I decided it was a good idea to return to FFN.

Maybe I thought it had changed (it hasn't). Maybe I thought I'd find some kind of fandom community there (I did not). Maybe I was trying to prove something to a previous adversary (like I need FFN to prove that). Maybe I was trying to recapture nostalgia.

The spam is out of control. The scams are out of control. The only comments I get are scambots of some stripe.

I deleted all of the new things I posted.

I disabled PMs.

I will probably be going through my FFN account and deleting most of the fics there (after backing them up, including reviews).

That's it. I'm tired, guys. I am so fucking tired.