let's hear it for day 3!
Oct. 25th, 2025 02:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
omaewokorosuSo Monday was our doctor appointment. It went well. I got taken off my bupropion (Wellbutrin) because it was no longer doing the things I needed it to do, and my doctor put me on Lexapro instead. Also got the flu vaccine and COVID booster shot and the latter made my arm really fucking sore and it still is. I started the new med on Thursday...
Day 1 (Thursday)
I didn't really notice much of a difference, but it takes a bit for things to begin kicking in, even though day one of me taking bupropion I felt an immediate difference, that was also me going from my very unmedicated baseline to having something enter my system. This time around I already have something in my system and things have to swap out. I waited for the side effects to inevitably kick my ass because that's what happens with any medication I end up on. Keep in mind I also had two vaccines so I ended up with side effects from that too (feverish, tireness, aches and pains, etc, typical shit you get when you have a vaccination, you get very minor symptoms of the thing you were vaccinated against).
Day 2 (Friday)
"Is this because of the vaccine or is this because of the new medication?" has been a thing I have been asking myself quite frequently. Is the tiredness from the vaccines or is it from the medication? I've also found that I will wake up after only a few hours of sleep and then have trouble going back to sleep, and this is because of how Lexapro works. The "wired" feeling is from the Lexapro producing more serotonin, which is what...keeps you awake. So going from practically no serotonin or very little to increased amounts that are near normal levels (in terms of someone with major depression compared to someone without a mood disorder of any kind) is going to mess with my sleep. Which is already fucked up. And nothing helps with this. "Wired but tired" was how I felt all fucking day. Caffeine intake didn't matter, I was still tired if not more so because caffeine is more for my focus and not so much keeping me awake. (I basically self medicate my ADHD with caffeine.) But my focus wasn't even the problem. My jittery hands were a problem when picking things up or placing them down and my arms shaking at my sides as I typed was really annoying. The dry mouth is awful.
Day 3 (Saturday/Today)
Not as jittery but still jittery enough, still tired (so "wired but tired, but not as wired"). Dry mouth still awful. My appetite hasn't really changed but I am also bleeding everywhere so I think the appetite decrease (because I eat less with antidepressants) and me being constantly hungry when I'm about to bleed everywhere kind of cancelled each other out and I have a normal appetite. But I don't really know what "normal appetite" is like because I have disordered/disorganised eating. So I really don't eat that much to start with an just graze throughout the day.
I know it's working though because last night we went to Wegmans to do our shop and the bag of onions Serena picked up didn't have a barcode on it so the cashier had to get someone to get one with a barcode... I've worked retail, having to do that sucks because you worry about line management and so forth, but it was late at night so that wasn't a problem, but we also had a customer behind us putting their shit up on the belt... So because I've worked retail I end up getting really anxious about holding the line up and causing inconvenience. I felt none of that. I was just like, "Eh, shit happens." The cashier was pretty cool about it as well but maybe that's because Serena and I were both calm? idk. Things that would normally make me really anxious did not. So I can tell it's working. So.
We shall see what happens.
Day 1 (Thursday)
I didn't really notice much of a difference, but it takes a bit for things to begin kicking in, even though day one of me taking bupropion I felt an immediate difference, that was also me going from my very unmedicated baseline to having something enter my system. This time around I already have something in my system and things have to swap out. I waited for the side effects to inevitably kick my ass because that's what happens with any medication I end up on. Keep in mind I also had two vaccines so I ended up with side effects from that too (feverish, tireness, aches and pains, etc, typical shit you get when you have a vaccination, you get very minor symptoms of the thing you were vaccinated against).
Day 2 (Friday)
"Is this because of the vaccine or is this because of the new medication?" has been a thing I have been asking myself quite frequently. Is the tiredness from the vaccines or is it from the medication? I've also found that I will wake up after only a few hours of sleep and then have trouble going back to sleep, and this is because of how Lexapro works. The "wired" feeling is from the Lexapro producing more serotonin, which is what...keeps you awake. So going from practically no serotonin or very little to increased amounts that are near normal levels (in terms of someone with major depression compared to someone without a mood disorder of any kind) is going to mess with my sleep. Which is already fucked up. And nothing helps with this. "Wired but tired" was how I felt all fucking day. Caffeine intake didn't matter, I was still tired if not more so because caffeine is more for my focus and not so much keeping me awake. (I basically self medicate my ADHD with caffeine.) But my focus wasn't even the problem. My jittery hands were a problem when picking things up or placing them down and my arms shaking at my sides as I typed was really annoying. The dry mouth is awful.
Day 3 (Saturday/Today)
Not as jittery but still jittery enough, still tired (so "wired but tired, but not as wired"). Dry mouth still awful. My appetite hasn't really changed but I am also bleeding everywhere so I think the appetite decrease (because I eat less with antidepressants) and me being constantly hungry when I'm about to bleed everywhere kind of cancelled each other out and I have a normal appetite. But I don't really know what "normal appetite" is like because I have disordered/disorganised eating. So I really don't eat that much to start with an just graze throughout the day.
I know it's working though because last night we went to Wegmans to do our shop and the bag of onions Serena picked up didn't have a barcode on it so the cashier had to get someone to get one with a barcode... I've worked retail, having to do that sucks because you worry about line management and so forth, but it was late at night so that wasn't a problem, but we also had a customer behind us putting their shit up on the belt... So because I've worked retail I end up getting really anxious about holding the line up and causing inconvenience. I felt none of that. I was just like, "Eh, shit happens." The cashier was pretty cool about it as well but maybe that's because Serena and I were both calm? idk. Things that would normally make me really anxious did not. So I can tell it's working. So.
We shall see what happens.
