do you believe you can walk on water?

so a week ago I got notified that the local Wegmans was hiring...so I put in an application. later that day they notified me that they wanted to interview me, and asked me to schedule that, which I did. interview was today at 11 and it went well enough where I was offered a second interview, this time in person, with the deli manager, 'cause that's where they think I would fit best. which is fine. i've never done deli before so that'll be interesting to do, and it's not front end! so yeah. that's this Friday.

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I'm still kind of like...in disbelief that a literal felon is now president. that people came out in droves to vote for this. they would rather have a conman than a woman who is more than qualified to be in the oval office... Like holy fuck what is this world coming to. this is worse than 2017. and people keep telling me shit like

oh it's not that bad

nothing bad will happen

if you surround yourself with good people then nothing bad will happen (not sure how that's even supposed to work)

but I am trans and places like Facebook are saying that it is okay to tell someone like me that I have a mental illness. that I should just accept myself as I was born instead of who I feel myself to be because fuck me being comfortable in my own body right? clearly all of these people who don't live as me know what's best, right?

I nearly had a fucking anxiety attack this morning because I was an anxious mess waiting for my interview and then I ended up having one because I was doomscrolling and shit was getting worse and worse and worse...

idk. what is there to even say.