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an emotion filled day for sure...
Nov. 25th, 2024 11:55 pmExhausted doesn't even cut it. It's not even physical exhaustion at this point, it's just Nothing But Exhaustion. Exhaustion Everywhere.
This morning as we waited for Spectrum to show up and give us internet access Tri-state Vet called.
Our Sadie is ready.
"We're open until 6pm today but if that doesn't work for you we can hold her until you're ready."
"We'll be in the area today anyway so we can come by and pick her up today."
"That's great to hear! We'll have Sadie ready for you when to arrive."
Sadie can come home today.
That was the first place we went, actually, when we got into Port. They brought her out in a really nice bag that said in gold foil Pet Meadow and they expressed their condolences again because vets and vet assistants get it. Sadie isn't just our cat. Sadie is our baby.
We got out into the car and took the really nice keepsake box out of the bag. It has a name plate with "Sadie" on it. There's the proof of cremation to ensure that she was cremated with the dignity and respect she deserves, and a card of condolence from the crematory people because animal lovers get it. We both started sobbing because here's our girl. We can bring her home and put her somewhere nice. Being able to hold her in my hands made everything real.
Sadie's really gone.
I knew how important it was to have her ashes and I knew that it would help bring closure to Aleks, who was especially devastated by her passing. For now, we would keep them in a safe spot in my car until we made the trip back home.
~*~
We got to pack not one but two cars today since either tomorrow or Wednesday my FIL is gonna ride with us downstate so he can drive Serena's car up to our house.
Her car doesn't sound good so depending, Dale (who has AAA) might just get it towed to our house instead. It's nothing to do with the engine, it could even be something as simple as her struts are going (first thing to go once your car approaches and hits 10 years old). Her brakes do need to be looked at and probably replaced at the very least. Like they still work okay, but whether he'll be comfortable driving it is a completely different thing. With AAA if you get a tow, the first 100 miles are free, so Serena would only have to pay for 71 miles, which isn't that bad. If that ends up being the case, Dale would ride with the tow truck driver instead.
Funny how when you pay your car off that's when everything starts to go wrong with it lmao.
All of the really light stuff (mostly clothing and plushies) went in her car so as to not tax the brakes and struts too much; all of the heavy shit (mostly books lbr) went in mine because my car doesn't have anywhere near the amount of wear and tear that hers does.
(Remember, it was her car that went back and forth from Rochester to Port multiple times a year, sometimes months in a row. That's almost 300 miles one way.)
To compare, her car is at around 80k miles (which is a decent amount for any car) whereas when we're all said and done with this move my car will be at 30k. (When we got the car from Healey's it was at 19k and change which is like nothing on a 2016 car, it wasn't driven all that much.)
Whilst we were packing up the cars Egg was in the kitchen listening to the radio to some modern country music station lmao I guess we got what we wanted packed up in the car, but I'm starting to get really nervous about things... Like when you think about it there's really not that much left in my office that I need/want to take? But we still have stuff in Serena's office, we still have stuff in the back room (though not a whole lot), and we still have the bedroom...
Like yeah we have Tuesday and Wednesday still...but I feel like there's still so much to go through, even though we've already gone through everything.
idk. It's just the feeling of overwhelm. This is a lot and it's not even everything, you know what I mean? It's just. Yeah.
Aleks seems confident and Serena does too that we'll get everything out by Wednesday. I don't want to return there after the holiday.
When we were pretty much done for the night, Egg I guess was getting ready to turn in for the night as well, because she asked if we were almost done, which we were. We shut all the lights off and headed out to the cars; Serena was gonna move hers to the driveway because we were only taking mine.
Something that kind of caught me off guard I guess is, you know, Egg wanted to know if we were gonna be here tomorrow and Aleks said yeah, we were gonna be here tomorrow and Wednesday. So she was like, "Well if I don't get a chance to see you, have a happy Thanksgiving. Have a good night and drive safe."
"You too," Aleks said, just as caught off guard.
I ended up crying on the way home because wow, she actually sounded human. And like, I know it probably wasn't genuine. She knows now that we weren't bluffing and she's lost. It's a massive wound to a narc's ego for something like this to happen. Thing is, I wouldn't have had to do it like this if she didn't abuse me and my wife like she did. Like this is in direct response to how she's treated me and been treating me and Serena. If anyone is to blame here it's her.
But I still can't help but feel bad.
This morning as we waited for Spectrum to show up and give us internet access Tri-state Vet called.
We have Sadie's cremains for you to pick up whenever is convenient for you.
Our Sadie is ready.
"We're open until 6pm today but if that doesn't work for you we can hold her until you're ready."
"We'll be in the area today anyway so we can come by and pick her up today."
"That's great to hear! We'll have Sadie ready for you when to arrive."
Sadie can come home today.
That was the first place we went, actually, when we got into Port. They brought her out in a really nice bag that said in gold foil Pet Meadow and they expressed their condolences again because vets and vet assistants get it. Sadie isn't just our cat. Sadie is our baby.
We got out into the car and took the really nice keepsake box out of the bag. It has a name plate with "Sadie" on it. There's the proof of cremation to ensure that she was cremated with the dignity and respect she deserves, and a card of condolence from the crematory people because animal lovers get it. We both started sobbing because here's our girl. We can bring her home and put her somewhere nice. Being able to hold her in my hands made everything real.
Sadie's really gone.
I knew how important it was to have her ashes and I knew that it would help bring closure to Aleks, who was especially devastated by her passing. For now, we would keep them in a safe spot in my car until we made the trip back home.
We got to pack not one but two cars today since either tomorrow or Wednesday my FIL is gonna ride with us downstate so he can drive Serena's car up to our house.
Her car doesn't sound good so depending, Dale (who has AAA) might just get it towed to our house instead. It's nothing to do with the engine, it could even be something as simple as her struts are going (first thing to go once your car approaches and hits 10 years old). Her brakes do need to be looked at and probably replaced at the very least. Like they still work okay, but whether he'll be comfortable driving it is a completely different thing. With AAA if you get a tow, the first 100 miles are free, so Serena would only have to pay for 71 miles, which isn't that bad. If that ends up being the case, Dale would ride with the tow truck driver instead.
Funny how when you pay your car off that's when everything starts to go wrong with it lmao.
All of the really light stuff (mostly clothing and plushies) went in her car so as to not tax the brakes and struts too much; all of the heavy shit (mostly books lbr) went in mine because my car doesn't have anywhere near the amount of wear and tear that hers does.
(Remember, it was her car that went back and forth from Rochester to Port multiple times a year, sometimes months in a row. That's almost 300 miles one way.)
To compare, her car is at around 80k miles (which is a decent amount for any car) whereas when we're all said and done with this move my car will be at 30k. (When we got the car from Healey's it was at 19k and change which is like nothing on a 2016 car, it wasn't driven all that much.)
Whilst we were packing up the cars Egg was in the kitchen listening to the radio to some modern country music station lmao I guess we got what we wanted packed up in the car, but I'm starting to get really nervous about things... Like when you think about it there's really not that much left in my office that I need/want to take? But we still have stuff in Serena's office, we still have stuff in the back room (though not a whole lot), and we still have the bedroom...
Like yeah we have Tuesday and Wednesday still...but I feel like there's still so much to go through, even though we've already gone through everything.
idk. It's just the feeling of overwhelm. This is a lot and it's not even everything, you know what I mean? It's just. Yeah.
Aleks seems confident and Serena does too that we'll get everything out by Wednesday. I don't want to return there after the holiday.
When we were pretty much done for the night, Egg I guess was getting ready to turn in for the night as well, because she asked if we were almost done, which we were. We shut all the lights off and headed out to the cars; Serena was gonna move hers to the driveway because we were only taking mine.
Something that kind of caught me off guard I guess is, you know, Egg wanted to know if we were gonna be here tomorrow and Aleks said yeah, we were gonna be here tomorrow and Wednesday. So she was like, "Well if I don't get a chance to see you, have a happy Thanksgiving. Have a good night and drive safe."
"You too," Aleks said, just as caught off guard.
I ended up crying on the way home because wow, she actually sounded human. And like, I know it probably wasn't genuine. She knows now that we weren't bluffing and she's lost. It's a massive wound to a narc's ego for something like this to happen. Thing is, I wouldn't have had to do it like this if she didn't abuse me and my wife like she did. Like this is in direct response to how she's treated me and been treating me and Serena. If anyone is to blame here it's her.
But I still can't help but feel bad.
