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Because that was me this morning.
Here I am, freshly showered after yet another epiphany re: Egg happened and I got angry on Karu's behalf (again), brushing my teeth, when Serena comes in wanting to wash grapes real quick for her breakfast and casually says, "So Eggikins went to the store today. It's on the security camera."
Egg usually goes to the store on Thursdays (and by "Egg goes" I am speaking of a Time Before when Egg actually wanted to do things for herself instead of trying to make everyone around her her servants). But Sunday's incident I guess left Eggikins feeling a certain way, and so to avoid us, I guess she's decided to change her day to Wednesdays until we're out of here so that she can continue to avoid us...? (Even though tomorrow is our last Thursday at the store, she doesn't know that, like she doesn't know our last day of work is the 26th, because she doesn't need to.) After finding out that no, we can't ring you out. Yes, really. (Even if we could, we wouldn't.)
It's like she was offended we couldn't break the rules for her or something 🙄
Anyway that's not the reason for embarrassment. The reason for embarrassment is that when she went outside to wait for the taxi (which she'd probably called for not that long before she went out), after waiting a few minutes, she started to get annoyed. According to Serena, who watched the whole clip with audio on:
Because you're not the only one who uses the taxi service in Port Jervis, Egg. That's why. The particular taxi company you use is the most popular one in the area - they are in high demand (because they are the best taxi service in the area). Unless you set up a specific pickup time in advance, it's first come, first serve. So you were entered into a queue. No matter how prompt they are, they can't magically teleport a taxi to your location right after requesting one.
But it's Egg, who thinks the world revolves around her, and that she is the most important person. Obviously they should know this. Somehow.
So there she stood on the front porch waiting, two (maybe three, it was hard to tell) reusable bags in hand, complaining that there wasn't a taxi two minutes after she'd called for one. I'm kind of surprised she even bothers with the reusable bags, considering ShopRite of Westfall is in Pennsylvania, and there is no plastic bag ban (like in NYS and NJ). But whatever. Those are her bags to keep, we don't need/want them back unless she doesn't want them. I don't know why she didn't just take the bag with all of them (including the reusable produce bags), but that would've made sense, and Egg was too busy complaining about the taxi being unable to warp to her location to care about that, I suppose...
As Serena told me about all of this, my toothbrush hanging from my mouth, all I could think to say was, "Be serious."
"Oh no I am being serious."
"You've got to be joking."
"I am not."
"I want to suffocate myself on my toothbrush." From the embarrassment, knowing that she's being incredibly junior high about all of this. To avoid seeing us at the store, even though she doesn't have to be anywhere near us, she's picked a completely different day until, I'm guessing, we're free of this place.
Which if I have any say in it, will be very, very, very soon. Because I will forego sleep to get everything packed up and cleared out as fast as possible. I don't care at this point. I want us out.
Serena saved the footage to our Google Drive... Here's what she saved it as:
😂
That shower epiphany...has to do with Rob's wedding. (Which...I went back and read through Karu's entries about it, because I have no memories of it myself, and it sounded like a complete shitshow.)
1. The fact that Egg contributed nothing to his wedding, not even $100 towards the cake or something, because she was too busy cosplaying poverty while sitting on six figures of cash to even pay for the cake or part of the cake or part of the flowers or something
2. The fact that the meal cost per person was $200, and Egg only gave a gift of $500 - the cost of two meals - when she could've given more than meal cost if she wasn't so stingy (and cosplaying poverty like I said), and then had the audacity to scoff at people who only gave a gift of $25 or $100. You didn't even give them anything, it was a wash.
3. The fact that because Egg was too busy playing the role of "poor, downtrodden old woman down on her luck because she is the Grieving Widow still after seven years," she refused to pay for Karu to get their hair and makeup done by the professional MUA Jenny had coming by the bridal suite... Karu was a bridesmaid and not just that, Karu was the groom's sibling. Karu instead had to tackle this challenge on their own with drugstore makeup and zero knowledge of how makeup is applied or what looks best.
3a. Some might blame this less on Egg and more on the bride because if she wanted everyone to look their best, she should've been footing the bill to ensure everyone was able to get the same level of professionally done styling; an oversight on the bride's part.
The fact that this was the wedding of her beloved baby boy who means the world to her and is the Golden Child makes me realize that Egg literally cares for no one but herself and her money is for her and her only. I don't know why she feels the need to hoard it. She can't take it with her when she dies. It's not like tombs hidden in the sands of Egypt of long dead pharaohs where their money and gems and pets and furniture are all buried in there with them due to their belief that these things somehow transported to the afterlife alongside them.
Do you want to know what I think?
I think Egg is going to die without a penny to her name. She will have to sell her house (which probably hasn't appreciated that much) and whatever possessions are worth money (which aren't many). Some long term care facility for the elderly will take all that they can monetary wise until she has nothing left to give them, in which case the state will step in, she will end up on Medicaid (there's nothing wrong with someone being on Medicaid btw, please don't misconstrue considering we were on it at different points in our adult life), and in some facility that probably no one in their right mind would send their loved one to.
And Egg will realize, all too late, that no one has any love and compassion for her, because they know exactly who and what she is. You can't have compassion for someone like Egg, who is a malignant narcissist, who enjoys playing mind games and employing manipulation tactics in order to best hurt everyone around them; the closer they are, the more hurt they receive. Which is why distance is best, no contact the only way forward.
After all, Egg was the one who said, in response to Serena telling her that she's not getting our new address, “Oh well that’s good! I’m glad! I don’t wanna know your address.” Egg was the one who added in after, “I don’t wanna know your life, I don’t wanna know ANYTHING.”
We will all have to face our mistakes and live with whatever the consequences of our actions are. Good and bad. For us, the consequence to us leaving is being saddled with a mortgage payment...and also our healing journey... As for Egg... The outcome for her is less positive.
After all, the seeds of the chaos and discord she's sown in the past are starting to blossom... Eventually they will bear fruit...that we won't be around to witness rot in her hands.
I told her not to fuck with me. But she fucked with me. She fucked with Serena. She fucked with Karu, which is why I had to step in and help orchestrate our escape.
Egg's fucked around. She's at the find out stage now. Do unto others as you would have done unto you. Isn't that the "Golden rule" they taught you in Sunday school, Egg? Treat others how you want to be treated.
It's very telling how you would like to be treated, considering how little you care about how much hurt you dole out to everyone around you. There's no fixing you.
There's no fixing this situation.
The only "fix" is to leave and cut off all ties.
Here I am, freshly showered after yet another epiphany re: Egg happened and I got angry on Karu's behalf (again), brushing my teeth, when Serena comes in wanting to wash grapes real quick for her breakfast and casually says, "So Eggikins went to the store today. It's on the security camera."
Egg usually goes to the store on Thursdays (and by "Egg goes" I am speaking of a Time Before when Egg actually wanted to do things for herself instead of trying to make everyone around her her servants). But Sunday's incident I guess left Eggikins feeling a certain way, and so to avoid us, I guess she's decided to change her day to Wednesdays until we're out of here so that she can continue to avoid us...? (Even though tomorrow is our last Thursday at the store, she doesn't know that, like she doesn't know our last day of work is the 26th, because she doesn't need to.) After finding out that no, we can't ring you out. Yes, really. (Even if we could, we wouldn't.)
It's like she was offended we couldn't break the rules for her or something 🙄
Anyway that's not the reason for embarrassment. The reason for embarrassment is that when she went outside to wait for the taxi (which she'd probably called for not that long before she went out), after waiting a few minutes, she started to get annoyed. According to Serena, who watched the whole clip with audio on:
She whined something like, "come on why do you take so long?"
Because you're not the only one who uses the taxi service in Port Jervis, Egg. That's why. The particular taxi company you use is the most popular one in the area - they are in high demand (because they are the best taxi service in the area). Unless you set up a specific pickup time in advance, it's first come, first serve. So you were entered into a queue. No matter how prompt they are, they can't magically teleport a taxi to your location right after requesting one.
But it's Egg, who thinks the world revolves around her, and that she is the most important person. Obviously they should know this. Somehow.
So there she stood on the front porch waiting, two (maybe three, it was hard to tell) reusable bags in hand, complaining that there wasn't a taxi two minutes after she'd called for one. I'm kind of surprised she even bothers with the reusable bags, considering ShopRite of Westfall is in Pennsylvania, and there is no plastic bag ban (like in NYS and NJ). But whatever. Those are her bags to keep, we don't need/want them back unless she doesn't want them. I don't know why she didn't just take the bag with all of them (including the reusable produce bags), but that would've made sense, and Egg was too busy complaining about the taxi being unable to warp to her location to care about that, I suppose...
As Serena told me about all of this, my toothbrush hanging from my mouth, all I could think to say was, "Be serious."
"Oh no I am being serious."
"You've got to be joking."
"I am not."
"I want to suffocate myself on my toothbrush." From the embarrassment, knowing that she's being incredibly junior high about all of this. To avoid seeing us at the store, even though she doesn't have to be anywhere near us, she's picked a completely different day until, I'm guessing, we're free of this place.
Which if I have any say in it, will be very, very, very soon. Because I will forego sleep to get everything packed up and cleared out as fast as possible. I don't care at this point. I want us out.
Serena saved the footage to our Google Drive... Here's what she saved it as:
😂
That shower epiphany...has to do with Rob's wedding. (Which...I went back and read through Karu's entries about it, because I have no memories of it myself, and it sounded like a complete shitshow.)
1. The fact that Egg contributed nothing to his wedding, not even $100 towards the cake or something, because she was too busy cosplaying poverty while sitting on six figures of cash to even pay for the cake or part of the cake or part of the flowers or something
2. The fact that the meal cost per person was $200, and Egg only gave a gift of $500 - the cost of two meals - when she could've given more than meal cost if she wasn't so stingy (and cosplaying poverty like I said), and then had the audacity to scoff at people who only gave a gift of $25 or $100. You didn't even give them anything, it was a wash.
3. The fact that because Egg was too busy playing the role of "poor, downtrodden old woman down on her luck because she is the Grieving Widow still after seven years," she refused to pay for Karu to get their hair and makeup done by the professional MUA Jenny had coming by the bridal suite... Karu was a bridesmaid and not just that, Karu was the groom's sibling. Karu instead had to tackle this challenge on their own with drugstore makeup and zero knowledge of how makeup is applied or what looks best.
3a. Some might blame this less on Egg and more on the bride because if she wanted everyone to look their best, she should've been footing the bill to ensure everyone was able to get the same level of professionally done styling; an oversight on the bride's part.
The fact that this was the wedding of her beloved baby boy who means the world to her and is the Golden Child makes me realize that Egg literally cares for no one but herself and her money is for her and her only. I don't know why she feels the need to hoard it. She can't take it with her when she dies. It's not like tombs hidden in the sands of Egypt of long dead pharaohs where their money and gems and pets and furniture are all buried in there with them due to their belief that these things somehow transported to the afterlife alongside them.
Do you want to know what I think?
I think Egg is going to die without a penny to her name. She will have to sell her house (which probably hasn't appreciated that much) and whatever possessions are worth money (which aren't many). Some long term care facility for the elderly will take all that they can monetary wise until she has nothing left to give them, in which case the state will step in, she will end up on Medicaid (there's nothing wrong with someone being on Medicaid btw, please don't misconstrue considering we were on it at different points in our adult life), and in some facility that probably no one in their right mind would send their loved one to.
And Egg will realize, all too late, that no one has any love and compassion for her, because they know exactly who and what she is. You can't have compassion for someone like Egg, who is a malignant narcissist, who enjoys playing mind games and employing manipulation tactics in order to best hurt everyone around them; the closer they are, the more hurt they receive. Which is why distance is best, no contact the only way forward.
After all, Egg was the one who said, in response to Serena telling her that she's not getting our new address, “Oh well that’s good! I’m glad! I don’t wanna know your address.” Egg was the one who added in after, “I don’t wanna know your life, I don’t wanna know ANYTHING.”
We will all have to face our mistakes and live with whatever the consequences of our actions are. Good and bad. For us, the consequence to us leaving is being saddled with a mortgage payment...and also our healing journey... As for Egg... The outcome for her is less positive.
After all, the seeds of the chaos and discord she's sown in the past are starting to blossom... Eventually they will bear fruit...that we won't be around to witness rot in her hands.
I told her not to fuck with me. But she fucked with me. She fucked with Serena. She fucked with Karu, which is why I had to step in and help orchestrate our escape.
Egg's fucked around. She's at the find out stage now. Do unto others as you would have done unto you. Isn't that the "Golden rule" they taught you in Sunday school, Egg? Treat others how you want to be treated.
It's very telling how you would like to be treated, considering how little you care about how much hurt you dole out to everyone around you. There's no fixing you.
There's no fixing this situation.
The only "fix" is to leave and cut off all ties.
